Action
Some time
ago I realized that I have a problem with systematicity. I tried to exercise
regularly, but I admit that most of the time I was too lazy to do it and now
I’m… ashamed. It’s obvious that if I want to see effects of activities which I
do I have to be systematic. I’ve therefore promised myself that even if I am
tired and lazy I will exercise anyway. It wasn’t an easy task for myself, but I
think that I managed to complete it. Moreover, summer is my new motivator since
I want to look good in clothes different from winter jacket in which everybody
looks like penguin or Eskimo. I also realized that I don’t like my body
altogether. Sometimes I feel jealous when I see fit thin girls on the street. I
must get rid of this feeling!
Now,
instead of working out with the “exercise agenda” I created about 3 months ago,
I decided to change it a little bit, so as not to get my muscles used to doing
the same activities all the time. I searched Youtube and found videos with
trainings I’ve been really entranced with, e.g. BeFit’s, Jamie Alderton’s and
Tiffany Rothe’s. Every time I exercise I choose some of their videos and mix
them to create a competent training session lasting at least 1 hour. Then, I do
a training consisting of stretching exercises made by myself, because I like it
so much and hope that one day I would be able to do splits, which has always
been my dream.
There
always exists that critical moment just before working out, when I feel lazy,
totally non-productive and worn out after whole day. During these moments I
recall myself that I ruled to be systematic, can’t disappoint myself and will
feel complacent and happy after (as always!). Then, the feeling of shame comes
and I have no choice but do a training J My problem is that I’m very
impatient and when I don’t see effects of my work, I give up and quit.
Unfortunately, changing the way the body looks takes much time and requires
hard work, thus I’m still trying to accept it and be active. I am doing
everything to be persistent and work out (at least?) 3 times a week.
Running
Yesterday
was the first time I went running this year. The weather was so beautiful that
I instantly felt an overwhelming desire to go jogging. I remembered that
amazing feeling I used to undergo during every run and couldn’t do anything
different but do this. Simultaneously I thought that it was going to be a
complete failure, because I hadn’t been running for about half a year, so my physical
condition wasn’t so good as it had used to be… Additionally, all the exercises I
had done at home were the muscle-growing type and running is a typical cardio
workout. Nevertheless, I did my training. As I expected, it occurred to be very
close to failure, because I got a colic at the very beginning and wasn’t able
to get rid of it during the whole session. I could catch my breath, though, and
didn’t feel a terrible pain in my legs, so it wasn’t so bad. Besides, the only
training which is bad is this one, which never took place, not this during
which something went wrong! J
Today I had
a really terrible day. My mood was… hopeless. I felt like crying and then,
suddenly thought that I may check out if running helps me. Not only did I run
40 minutes without any break, which I consider as a success, but also cheered
myself up. There’s no better way to improve your mood than running! Nothing is
able to clean human’s thoughts the way it does.
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